LOL!

Yeah, still alive. more drama, less time to update this. LOL, although i need to post a video that totally just made my day. Rednecks are good for something...entertainment:D

Obsessive Wealthy Stalker Guy-Obsessive Wealthy Stalker Guy's Roomate-Married guy

Paul Kensington, he lives up to his name, rich, snobby, doesn't/hasn't worked an entire day in his life, lives off trustfund, and mummy and daddy pay the bills. Parents, huge realtors in London, Washington, NY, and LA. Sister is Rebecca Kensington, loves eating, snowboarding and Political Science.

Met Paul through his cousin robert, met Robert a an Unitarian Universalists Conference in Minneapolis a few years ago.

Story with Paul-When i first met Paul, there wasn't any dating or friends, we just hopped into the sack and did the dirty. Which i had been fine with for a while BC i hadn't actually wanted anything from him, relationship wise. But, as time went on we started hanging out, going on dates, doing extremely random things at all hours of the night. It was going great, and then we started to involve Paul's roomate Mark in our nightly romp-around...it got even better. The first night we all got in on it...it was a Wednesday, and i was supposed to be meeting people for a party, but instead i got mixed up with Paul and Mark. It just started out Paul and i making out in the kitchen while trying to get a cup of milk BC i had heartburn, but Paul kept saying " i'll show you some good milk" and kept pushing me away from the fridge in a playful manner, lol. Mark finally walks up to the fridge and pours a glass of milk and starts drinking it in front of me. I called him a bastard and sprayed water at him from the facet-handle-thing and he pours the entire glass of milk onto Paul and i. Knowing i'm not going to the party with ruin clothes i went all out and douced Paul and Mark with water as Mark attacks Paul with a jug of milk, Paul runs outside while it's raining and strips down to his boxerbriefs (of course they're white so i can see everything) Mark does the same as he's still holding the damn jug of milk spraying it around.

Then unspokenly they both attack me, Paul starts to un-botton my shirt and he's kissing me. Mark walks up behind me and puts his hands on my uppershoulders, and slowly moves his hands down towards my pants. At this point i didn't know up from down and didn't really care about what was going on between us all. Mark puts his thumbs in my pants and pulls them down, Paul has the front of my shirt undone, and halveway down my arms. It was like the beggining of a soft core pornO_O, right in the backyard, lol thank god the porch light was off bc i remember looking over and seeing the neighbors sitting down and having dinner in one house over and thinking "omg there going to see three halve naked gay guys just going at in the backyard" lol. Things got really heavy, and before i knew it i was topping Paul, and Mark was topping me right there on the back porch.

Had i known all the drama that would come of it, i wouldn't have let progresses to that. Things like this happened for a few weeks, then Paul started getting jealous and i was starting to like Mark. Hung out with Mark more than Paul. Slept a few times together without Paul, while Paul wasn't home, or he would come over to my apartment.

This is where the Not-So-Married-Anymore-Guy comes into play. Scott, met him almost 2 years ago now, started seeing him, he told me that his wife and he were in the middle of getting a divorce, yadda yadda. I stopped seeing him prior to meeting Paul and Mark, ages ago. SO, how he fits in is one day when Paul was in LA, and Mark was busy so i called Scott bc i was...lonely? lol...and things with him hit off again...at this time he was still married, and i was "the other woman" to her lol. Another week or so went by and i was with Scott at the mall, not sure why, but just hanging out. Then Paul call's me and asked if i wanted to come over and play HALO. I told Paul i was with someone, but i'm pretty sure at the time he thought i was just with a friend. Even after telling him "hey, if i do, do you mind if i bring someone" So, Scott and i drove to Paul's to play HALO, and things we're going ok for a little bit.

Hell broke loose when Scott kissed me and asked if i wanted Ice Cream BC coldstone was 2 mins away. It finally clicked in Paul's head that Scott wasn't just a friend, and he looked at me confused and a little shocked. Scott left for ice cream, and Paul looked me dead in the eye and said "what? i wasn't good enough?" Moreso a hurt feeling towards it than angry. We talked about how we never made anything official, and i was in it for the fun. And amazingly, Paul took it as ok and was extremely calm BC at the time he agreed. So, things were going good, and then Mark walks into the house, see's me and jumps into my lap as i'm trying to play video games. It was like a car accident going to happen, and you know it's going to happen, but you can't provent it and you can't look away. Scott comes back and Paul opened the door to unveil Mark with his shirt off on my lap, and scott's face just dumbfounded. Scott walks in, and i swear to god my thoughts we're that he's going to snap and kill all of us right now. But...he didn't.

Scott came to the couch and introduced himself to Mark as he was still on top of me. I tilted my head back and said "hi" very reluctantly. Scott went in for a spider man kiss, and then Mark jumped off of me like lightning. Scott smiled and looked at Mark and said "who's this?" in like a "bom chika wah wah" kinda voice. Introduction's went all around and freakishly no one was angry, no one was hurt, we just sat there and played Halo. WTf right?

Later on that night we started drinking, ordered pizza, played Halo, you know, just hanging out. Things god strange after that, Paul and Mark started making out in the middle of a game, which was a tad frustrating bc we were up a good 3 to win, but then we got owned. Naturally Scott and i started making out, and he took off his pants and said in my ear like it was sexy "i have a problem if you wanna help me with it" LOL! Seriously? FOR REAL? lol, bitch i don't wanna help you through any of yo crazy ass marriage-non-marriage problems. (this was my mind set at the time). He started getting touchy, and my pants came undone. His hand went EVERywhere down there, and i couldn't help but be a little vocal. At which time Paul and Mark took notice..lol. Mark came over and threw his hand down there as well, then they both took my pants/underwear completely off, both started blowing me, it was amazing... Paul came out of no where, i started blowing him...Wow, it just got crazy from there. this person in that person, while doing this to that person and everyone focused on this person and then this person...omg it was hectic. Never thought my first foursome would end up like that O_o. lol

So, all of use had nights like that from then on, i was usually the one to get involved every single time though, even when i wasn't expecting it. I didn't feel dirty, or ashamed...it was fun, and we we're all in agreement that this is what we wanted.

A few week's later, Paul asked me to merry him, and i told him i would think about it. Randomly one night as he and i were watching tv he pulled out and ring, told me he loved me and tried putting the ring on. Fortunatly it was too small, and i told him to raincheck, lol. He was a little hurt from that, i know, but i didn't know who to tell him no. His skiing trip in France came up, and Mark when to LA to see Blake. during the first few days of Paul being gone, something sparked with Scott that sent him on a rampage against Paul. Scott called Paul and told him that i was just using Paul, for this and that, and that i can't stand him. Which is not true, but Scott felt the need to dismiss Paul completely from my life. Paul took it seriously...so he dissapeared for 4 days in france. I thought he may have died bc back at the Cabin, his snowboarding gear was gone and his passports and stuff we're still at the cabin. Nevertheless, Paul showed up after 4 days of hard drinking, and doing drugs with hippies from Italy. I wasn't to happy...with Scott as well BC i had found out the things that Scott said. A that point i stopped talking to Scott competely...even until now.

Paul finally came back and we started fighting about everything. The last night i really spent time with Paul he got violent with me. The argument escallated, and as i was trying to leave he grabbed my arm, and jerked me towards him, i slapped him and left. Abviously it hasn't been the same between us anymore, even though we've made amends. Now, he just stalks me, call's me at 4 am drunk and crying...i can't take it anymore. He followed me home once...its just to much with him.

I continued to see Mark, and hung out and all the good stuff until i met Branden at the laundry mat. But now that i'm not with Branden anymore...i don't know. I wouldn't mind hanging out with him but i don't know if i could do anything else. Things are just way to complicated now...

God, listen to me i sound like i'm wrting a book or something. Lol, sorry i'm blogging about how it is, i've had my good graphic moments, and then complete shit in the past year. Oufda.

As of now, i'm not really seeing anyone...which i think is a good thing bc i need to slow all this crazy shit down. it's getting old, and i'm ready to move on from it. It's been situations like this for the longest time now. Oufda, i think i just wanted to vent, and vent i did. you know, have a but of closure with the past few dramatic things O-o.

anyway...i is done.

(lol, i know this makes it even worse, but there's Janson and Kyle, that i haven't bothered to mention due to the graphic content, lol)

The Gay Republican Cop

I feel the need to report on my relationships bc Oprah never call me back about the big time movie about my life being put into production, lol. I feel as though my life has been taken out of some lifetime movie with all the drama and odd situations i find myself in all the time. The Gay Republican Cop, the Obsessive Wealthy Guy Stalker, The Roommate of the Wealthy guy Stalker, The Not-So-Married-Any-more-guy, and Rain-Check-Fling-Guy, lol.

The Gay Republican Cop:
Originally I had met Branden after he pulled me over for speeding on Clairemont, but let me go with a warning, because i was being cooperative (I'm pretty sure the slutty black shirt i had been wearing had something to do with it too, lol). Few weeks went by, and i had to wash my comforter bc Erin had spilled juice on it; so i took it to the laundry mat where low and behold i find Branden. The idle chit chat about pulling me over, and being a cop, yadda yadda. We hit it off pretty good actually, and i found him interesting so i pulled the cute factor and hooked him good and tight, lol. Originally he said we should hang out and let him convince me that not all cops are bad, and play halo with (yes, the gays do play video games). SO, first night we went to go "hang out" (BC it was pretty much a date), the usual: go out for dinner at Olive Garden, saw a movie (speed racer 'don't ask’), then went for a walk around Carson park afterwards. It was really nice. Nice cool air after a hot day, eventually made our was to one area for parking that looked over Halve moon lake, and trying to ignore the smell i made the most of it and said "wow, it's kind of pretty when you don't think about the smell and sight of rotting water." I'm pretty sure at this point we both know it's not a hang-out-session, because he walked up behind me, placed one of his arms around my waist, other around my chest and kissed the left side of my neck, nice full warm lips that we're so gentle, while proceeding to rest his head on my left shoulder. LOL, it was a great kiss:D Aquard moment went by and we just bursted out laughing because neither one of us knew what to say. I turned around and just smiled at him and the first kiss came...*sigh* great lips...*sigh* great lips. Spent the night together at his house, nothing happened. Watched adultswim (robot chicken, home movies), made out a few times, cuddled, come morning i woke up alone next to a note "help yourself to any juice int he fridge, i'm out to get breakfast" OMG I'VE STRUCK GOLD!!! lol, thought process at the time. He eventually came back, made pancakes, bacon, eggs, hash browns and toast. Amazing cook.

That was the first night spent together. Few days' later another date, saw a movie...although...we didn't make it through. Started making out hardcore in the back of the theater, then he stopped, looked me dead in the eye and said "i want to take you home right now" and i don't think I've ever driven out of the mall parking lot that fast ever O_O. He made it back before i did, like by 5 Min's BC i hit red lights. I walk into the front Door and good god... He was in FULL UNIFORM...Cop fantasy fulfilled right there! Tool belt, night stick, flash light, gun...the whole shebang. Started making out, then it lead to cheesy pick up lines like " is that a gun? or are you just happy to see me" and "wow, that's quite the nightstick you have there." Things didn't really pick up until he was showing me how to use the handcuffs...and I'm not gonna lie he was asking for it. I didn't really know what the hell i was doing with these handcuffs, so it took me 3 Min's to finally have him handcuffed behind his back. Oufda...Obviously he was letting me BC his physical strength was much greater than mine.

I don't think i should get into the graphic details, but point in being i used his nightstick on him in extremely inappropriate ways and had him handcuffed the entire time...as well as a tie, and his shirt never fully came off. lol...After that was done, we dropped all the kinky cop things and just went at it like confined rabbits.

Few weeks went by, everything was going great...until politics came up one day during a conversation with him, and I found out that he's a Republican supporter...it nearly tore me apart BC i had found someone on such an emotional level, and hearing that confused me. Gay...and republican?. It had to end BC i know with myself being an "extreme" Democrate it would have come up at one point or another, and all hell would have broken loose.

So, like all sad ending relationship stories i called my mom crying and told her about everything,a nd how the world wasn't fair. Usual dramatic saying, but not to the point of EMO. Try'd hanging up with my mom but then something had popped into my head and i just burst out laughing. i said to her.

"Mom, i'm willing to sleep with a Married Man and pretty much ruin his marriage, But i will not...see a republican because i have standards damnit!"

She burst out laughing and told me i was a horrible person in a joking manner.

I still talk to Branden on occasion...but it's not the same. Lost whatever we had...sad really, but oh well.

BTW that's not Branden in the photo, i'm not using their actual pictures bc i think they would get mad if i do O_o.

Gays are a little dumb

So, i'm watching this show on truTV called The Real Hustle, and a good 3 out of 5 males that end up getting scammed are gay. This show is really making us look bad. Most people know that us gays like shiny things; in one instance they put on a fake charity raising thing, and then the guy that falls for the scam wins the grand prize and gives away all his info that they would need to rack up 15,000$ in debt and take his entire identity. Two others with a car scam, one with an apartment...DUDE! come on, we're not that dense in the head, we should know when it's a scam or not...bc if it's too good to be true, damn right it is, lol.


still loving living in menomonie. Huge party last weekend. And as it turns out, Allie (awesome party mami cita girl) lives 30 feet kinda kiddie corner from our house...lol, don't have to go far to pass out to party there. Feaster ( everyone call's him his last lame but he's John Feaster), was helping me stand up...and i've always had a little crush on feaster, since i was 14 actually. Soooooo, not being in the right state of mind i just kinda stood there laughing and staying up right with him smiling and his arm around my shoulders. It was nice...and yeah i'll finished later

BITCH ASS HO!!

lol, couldn't think of more of an interesting title. ARgh. So i feel as though my life are something straight out of Hollywood. rich stalking man that wants to merry me, the now-not-so-married man that's in love with me, and the latest edition! The Republican Cop....Wtf?! Seriously!!! I'd like something a little normal for fucken' once! lol.


Here's what i need:
Tall-6-6'2"
Hair-Dark Brown or blonde
Eyes-blue or my color
Physical-Not to picky, someone with the same body type as me
Personality-Outgoing but not rude, positive attitude, funny as hell,
Stable, caring, adventurous, mid-straight acting
Sexual-adventurous, bottom, into extreme crazy german shiza stuff
Job-able to hold his own and have work ethic
LOL! i just read this over and i want someone that's just like me.

And if you were shocked about the german shiza, i'm not into that it just sounded LMAO at the time, lol.

Oufda, back to work:D

Thumpa-Thumpa

LOL, it's actually in the dictionary, looks it ups.

SO, finally moved in. Three Frat houses within 300 feet of my house, we have two roofed porches, as well as a sunroom on the second floor with a balcony. Parkings bit of a bitch though...no garage -_-. Can't complain i'm paying rent that equal's to the amount i usually spend at Macy's in an hour.

really pissed about the Land Rover...the guy i was going to buy it from decided to sell it to someone else for 300$ cheaper than i was paying. His reason is bc i missed one of his call's, so he took it as i wasn't interested. After, i had told him i was approved for the loan and everything and making plans to coming to get it...wtf right?

NOt dating Bradon anymore, nice guy, huuge nightstick, treated me very nicely...reason why? the fucker is republican...no go for me. As ditzy and superficial as i seem i have my standards when it comes to politics. IN fact, this year i'll be canvasing around Eau Claire again for the election and making phone call's and yadda yadda. You know, the crazy people on the side of the street holding up signs? lol, yup, i be one of them.

SHIT, i need to finish something at work...no more update byebye

Stress-almost done

Ok, so for the past few days i've only come to realize that the lease for Chris and Geoff ends next week...lol, franticly trying to find an apartment. Gave the jeep to erin, i dont need it and it's so banged up (X 4 car accidents this year alone) i wouldn't get anything out of it. SO, soon i may be a proud driver of an 2000 Land Rover Discovery series II. Great price too. Mileage won't be a problem bc my co-worker Aimee lives halveway from EC to Menomonie, and i could ride to work with her from her house. SO, 30 miles a day round trip as is opposed to 60, dude i'm so in that.

OUfda, housing shouldn't be a problem anymore either. i have an appointment to look at tow housed tomorrow. A new townhouse for 850$ and 4 bedrooms. Or, and older house (10 years) for 800$ a month, but 6 bedrooms and a three car Garage...It's actually a hard choice bc i do want a new townhouse...and it's only a 2 car garage...which would mean i'd have to fight Jeremy, CLayton, Geoff, and Kyle for a Garage space....i'm leaning towards the cheaper older house now that i think of it. I mean, it's cheapter, closer to the liquir store, block away from the gas station, close to STout...three car garage...hmmm. yeAH

anyway's back to work:D

Chicks Dig me

LOL, no joke dude. Women are seriously falling left and right man. I can't name any names in fear of them finding out, but only recently have i heard on multiple accounts " i wish you were straight" or "why can't you be straight?" lol. I discussed this thing with Chris and the conversation (as stoned off my ass as i was) it made sence. Women, are drawn to things they can't have...that goes for males as well, human nature in itself. Women see more the emotional stand point from my gay self b/c there isn't any pressure to get down and dirty, thus any doubt's about hanging out can happen without the dwindeling thought of "is this a date?" Given also, gay men are usually out spoken, and know what to say at the right moment (like cracking jokes, sexual enuendos).

I mentioned to Chris he should say he's Bi and women would find him more attractive, lol.


Argh, back to work, break is over O_o