Going to France?

So, Paul called me and left me a voicemail asking me if i we're interested in going to France with him for 3 weeks on a Skiing trip with his family. Rebecca (Pauls sister) is already there, and his parents would be arriving about the time we would get there. Plainly i dont want to go.

Reason one-i'd have to take time off work for this trip and my PTO hasn't been in the positive for a while now.
Reason two-i don't have a passport, and it would take three months to get anyway.
Reason Three-he may try to ask me to merry him...on the top of a mountian, with his family...in France...O_O.

I can't get away if i had said no, his fam-damly would ditch me in France and i'd be FUCKED.

OH! Fourth reason-i don't speak French, whereas Paul and Rebecca are fluent in Dutch ( i think that was it) and French, lol.

I'm stressed about the whole thing, and dont' want to deal with it o-o.

But, i have to deal with it, and by dealing with it, i'm going to have to figure out how to let Paul down lightly this time. B/c i do really like him as a friend (and the occasional lay...or threesome, and as of the past two times i've seen him the foursome, lol).

I know i joked about merrying extremely well off men, and now that it actually came into play...i want nothing but to run away and hate myself for even saying such a thing...fucking stab of irony.


Lol, and it doesn't help that everyone i've talked to about it doesn't see the point of not-going.

argh...